Coming Back

I’ve been MIA for awhile, did you notice? Probably not. I have so many excuses as to why I haven’t come back to this page since April 26!?! Wow! I hadn’t realized it’d been that long, it’s literally been two months to the day since I came to this place that I created where I can vent, and share my thoughts, ideas and emotions. It’s not that I didn’t want to come back here but the end of the school year is a brutal one for me y’all. Everything seems to go upside down when May hits and I don’t feel like I truly get my footing back until, well until the end of June I guess. That’s kinda sad when you really think about it, that I allow myself to forget about myself for two months. The thing is I sit at a desk on a computer all day and during the month of May I’m literally chained to that desk so the last thing I want to do is come home and sit at a desk. Yet I desperately want to come here to this place to pour my heart out. I have sticky notes and notes in my phone, emails to myself and scraps of paper with my thoughts all over them and I would chomp at the bit to get home to take all those jumbled thoughts that rattle around inside my head all day and get them in some orderly fashion here, on this site I created for myself, for you, for no one. I need a laptop so that I’m not forced to sit at a desk in the evenings as well (yes I’m the only person on the planet without my own laptop). I want to be able to go outside or lay in bed or sit on the sofa with the dogs literally laying all over me as I am now (since I’m borrowing my husbands laptop). But honestly the lack of a laptop is just another pitiful excuse. If I want this writing thing to work, if I want to really do this (and I do y’all!) then I need to stop with the excuses. I need to suck it up that I may have to sit at my desk at home another hour in the evening. I need to make myself wake up an hour earlier or stay up an hour later. I need to be good to myself and give myself this gift of sitting here behind this computer screen because it really does feed my soul.

I’m holding myself accountable…do me a favor and holler at me if I go MIA again y’all.